time. thought i'd make friends with time.
that's something that i would't mind.
to make friends with time.
fear. whoever came too near.
whoever made me feel like.
i could love my whole life.
it's only you.
arms. how i hate autumn arms.
around my throat until i choke.
breathe in and breathe out.
night. when i trade day for night.
when everything seems alright.
i break through thin ice

I took it as a threat
You meant it as the doctrine
Of everything that was and would become.
I don't have to ask, you don't miss me at all.
You made it so obvious
When you slowly walked away
And then I prayed in vain.
I would've traded everything
even for just a taste.
I'll live with the loneliness.
but I'll never forget
I was never your best bet.


I guess thats a lie.
Another one.
Is it wrong I want that little package I wrapped up all those months ago.
Fuck.
Why did you do that.
It's bought it all back.
Fuck.
Fuck.
Fuck.
I think I want to do it.
But I don't know why.
SOME FUCKING FRIENDS YOU ARE.
DSLKJGGGGGGGGGGROIJFPAEOJDLSFJSOVNFSDOPIGHSPDOFIPEJF.

there’s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
there’s still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
it’s still a little hard to say what's going on

there’s still a little bit of your ghost your witness
there’s still a little bit of your face i haven't kissed

I don't like him, I'm not sure I ever did. I just don't know how I'm meant to react.
I need to find something, someone maybe, that can save me from the path I may be headed down.
At least I've finally realised change is good. I can't wait 'till Uni. ^^

there’s still a little bit of your song in my ear
there’s still a little bit of your words i long to hear
you step a little closer to me
so close that I can't see what's going on

stones taught me to fly
love taught me to lie
life taught me to die
'cos its not hard to fall,

My dad has that song playing in the car when he bothers to turn the radio on. Lovely. :]

All I know is that you're so nice,
You're the nicest thing I've seen.
I wish that we could give it a go,
See if we could be something.

I wish I was your favourite girl,
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world.
I wish I was your favourite smile,
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style.

I wish you couldn't figure me out,
But you always wanna know what I was about.
I wish you'd hold my hand when I was upset,
I wish you'd never forget the look on my face when we first met.

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot that you loved secretly,
'Cos it was on a hidden bit that nobody else could see.
Basically, I wish that you loved me,
I wish that you needed me,
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars, actually I meant three.

I wish that without me your heart would break,
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake.
I wish that without me you couldn't eat,
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep.

All i know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen
I wish that we could see if we could be something

Urrrrrrghh..how embarrassing. ='[

I turn my back and walk away, away from the pain
Screaming loud, drown it out by the sound of the rain
Listen up, I've had enough of all this waiting
I need you more right now than I ever did

I take it back, I don't want this.
You'll never be out of my life until I leave.
I'm not ready to leave.
Please, don't do this to me.

Everything's going back to how I never wanted it to be.

Watch as I pick myself up off the ground
In the dark, I'm so far from the spotlight
Can you see me now?

What happens when the person you hated for a year says sorry.
And you say it back.
And you talk.
What happens now?
What the hell do I do?
Oh god...
This is good.
I know it because I haven't felt this free in a long long time.
I don't think I have EVER felt this free.
I feel like I'm a child again,
Like I could do anything.
That's what you took from me.
And now I've got it back...
Thank you, truly.

If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand. I hope you find out what you want. I already know what I am. And if it makes you less sad, we'll start talking again. And you can tell me how vile I already know that I am. I'll grow old and start acting my age. I'll be a brand new day in a life that you hate. A crown of gold. A heart that's harder than stone. And it hurts a whole lot, but it's missed when it's gone. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not. I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget. If it makes you less sad, I'll move out of the state. You can keep to yourself. I'll keep out of your way. And if it makes you less sad, I'll take your pictures all down. Every picture you paint, I will paint myself out. It's cold as a tomb, and it's dark in your room, when I sneak to your bed to pour salt in your wounds. So call it quits or get a grip. Say you wanted a solution. You just wanted to be missed. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not. I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget... You are calm and reposed. Let your beauty unfold. Pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones. Spring keeps you ever close. You are second hand smoke. You are so fragile and thin. Standing trial for your sins. Holding onto yourself the best you can. You are the smell before rain. You are the blood in my veins. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not. I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget.




I like the lack of structure that lyrics websites sometimes have.
Thank you x

Everytime I see your smile
it makes my heart beat fast
And though it's much too soon to tell
I'm hoping this will last

'Cause I just always wanna have you
Right here by my side
The futures near but never certain
At least stay here for just tonight

I must have done something right
To deserve you in my life
I must have done something right along the way

I just can't get you off my mind and why would I even try?
Even when I close my eyes I dream about you all the time

And even if the moon fell down tonight,
There'd be nothing to worry about to worry about at all,
because you make the whole world shine
As long as you're here everything will be alright

This static contact is pulling us apart.
Please hang on tight,
I'll see you through the night.

You have me still because I'm breathing,
Although it has slowed down.
Please don't cry because I'm leaving.
I hope I see you soon.

Exchange the sunshine for brown eyes and dark skies,
Replace this dull life with you.
I Know it's tomorrow,
She's waiting for something to feel alive.

You know me too well,
She's sorry and I can tell.
Scene missing, fade to black.
You're acting all this out again,

Just wake me when it's over,
When the curtains raise,
It's time to move on.
Exit now, credits rolling,
The girl who stole my heart.
The one that got away...

Screenwriting an Apology - Hawthorne Heights

Dead - Like a candle you burned out;
Spill the wax over the spaces left in place of angry words.
Scream - To be heard, like you needed any more attention;
Throw the bottle, break the door, and disappear.

Sing me to sleep,
I'll see you in my dreams
Waiting to say, "I miss you. I'm so sorry."

Forever's never seemed so long;
As when you're not around it's like a piece of me is missing.
I could have learned so much from you,
But what's left now?

Lullabies - All Time Low

I'm haunted by everything that you gave me
You made me, you broke me, you saved me
I'm crazy, but I'm not done

Holly (Would You Turn Me On) - All Time Low

Your face arrives again
All hope I had becomes surreal
But under your cover's
More torture than pleasure
And just past your lips
There's more anger than laughter
Not now or forever will I ever change you
I know that to go on I'll break you, my habit

You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine

I will save myself.

My Heroine - Silverstein

I can't pretend I’m happy when...
and now I know its pointless.
I’m constantly on a down and I’m tired of waiting.
Climb to the top,
we climb to the top and now you're falling again

Keeping Up With The Joneses - The Medic Droid

You can be ghost in my hall
You can be the smile I don't want
I'll be the fly on your wall
You can be the distance in between
You can be everything I need
You'll be the girl I don't call

Jealous minds think alike
You're a dent in time
I'm wasting all my time
You're only gone

Jealous Minds Think Alike - You Me At Six

and girl I hate to say this
maybe It's the wrong time
to bring up the feelings gone
maybe you were right
but I can't do this now so
pretty eyes, I'll say goodnight
I said enough, I'm letting go

It's About Love - The Medic Droid

So here’s my last goodbye,
this nightmare ends you’re asleep now get up.
I set my friends on fire,
I know I’ve lost control,
I see you’ve lost your smile as this life takes it’s toll

But now after all,
can you just forget?
But now after all,
what do you got to show for it?

To darkness,
to suffer,
when I fall.
I will see you in hell.

See You In Hell... - Aiden

So let me take this medicine
To quench my love for violent things
My swan song will
Be like a bullet laced in anger
As the razor cuts a soft spot
On your heel.

(Each breath) is getting slower
(This war) is getting harder
To fight by myself
(Sick waves) of bitter fashion,
(Ripped down) the shield that I have
Tears rain from above.

Do you see?
The life I lead?

Bite To Break Skin - Sences Fail

And all that I have now is rock music, and scenester bitches, cocaine lines, and long extensions.
Sho-fer - The Medic Droid

Breathing in the same sequence
While trying to make sense of your situation
That we got ourselves in, two more weeks of one way conversation
She swears she's losing interest
I swear that we are best friends till the end

This could be the plans for revenge
But these words lead to dead ends

Breathing in Sequence - Hawthorne Heights

You mean so much to me.
I hate you.
I miss you more than anything in this world of mine.

DOO ITTTT!!!
http://www.socialvibe.com
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I had an amazing weekend.
Lived at Javies from Friday to Sunday (today).
Spent Friday night at some rock night thing and nearly died when a certain person was onstage... D: why the hell did he have to perform.
It was like a nightmare for about about 20 minutes.
But it was amazing,
and Saturday was truly wonderful.
I love how my friends can turn sticks into songs and a joke we will never forget.
And during the whole weekend I had one person on my mind,
because he had to go and text me for hours.
And now I'm stuck in that stupid hole again.
But part of me wants to stay.
Because I don't mind getting hurt for him, because I want him to be happy since even though he is a complete idiot at times he is a really amazing friend to me.
And he is in the same category as the people I spent the weekend with.
So I'm not worried.
Stuffs looking good from where I am.
:)
And who gives a damn about 6 months.
I don't need it so much anymore, so at least I tried.

Oh and AK.org is open. <3
I missed it, and I didn't realise how much.

Guess who didn't make it to 6 months?
Mmhmm.
I suck.
Wahey!

But yeah, I'm web designing again. This may help.
Also, I'm more weary of other people so it's not so bad this time.
I may still be stuck but at least I have more room to breath.

Boredom strikes:

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Personality Disorder:	High
Schizoid Personality Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:	High
Antisocial Personality Disorder:	High
Borderline Personality Disorder:	Very High
Histrionic Personality Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:	High
Avoidant Personality Disorder:	High
Dependent Personality Disorder:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
-- Take the Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Info --

;D
Skillz!

So here we are
Back to the start again
Trying hard to wait till morning
Hey rise and shine
And open up your eyes
To give this world some color
Shine on diamond eyes
Separate the space
Between love and lies

And as days go by, the memories remain
I'll wait for you
And as days go by, the memories remain
I won't let go

These days remain the same
Pictures fade away

Please don't ever change
Please don't change your mind
No matter what they say
I'll always wait
I like Hawthorne Heights. <3

And I've lost my Sharpie.
But I found my chapstick.
In the dirt.
Perfect.
Just.
Perfect.

This was my fate, giving in
To your lips, to your eyes
I should have known
It would come back to haunt me
Crooked smile, the reflection in your eyes
That shows my weakness for
Beautiful mistakes,
Something that I know you've seen before,
I'm not the first
Set the trap, I'm falling for it every time
Always and Never, Silverstein

I've started to really like that band.

So, I went to see Enter Shikari in Norwich last night. It was amazing. Better than last year I think, but it was also more cramped. My hair was a mess by the end but surprisingly my plan to keep my make up on my face worked, I was proud of that. I didn't look too bad by the end, just very wet. Thats what you get for having tall friends, when they drink the bits that don't do in their mouth go on you. Joy. Got a new shirt and signed poster. I was quite happy.

I hate change. I hate hate hate hate hate change. Half the time I fear it. So when things change its really hard for me. And everyone thinks I'm just being immature and attention seeking but I swear I'm not, I just don't know what to do when change makes me feel like I'm loosing my grip on my life. And my grip is not very strong anyway.

No one sees me here, It doesn't even matter
And every step I take, I stay in the same place
I can't begin to start again why can't I just be perfect?

I will never recover from this
I will never believe in this again
I can never go back to the way I used to be before this started
The Ides Of March, Silverstein

I think I should stop lyric searching, it makes me feel the need to blog and then I never get anything done. I should be sleeping by now, I'm knackered. This is satisfying me much more though.

I don't particularly like Hollywood Undead, no offence to them or anything I just can't seem to get into them. Anyway, I was lyric searching and found the lyrics to one of their songs and oh my, it cried out to me. It's probably the only song of theirs I like purely because of the lyrics.

I was running in circles,
I hurt myself,
Just to find my purpose.
Everything was so worthless,
I didn't deserve this,
But to me, you were perfect.
Circles, Hollywood Undead

If that doesn't define my relationship with almost all the people I would die for then nothing does.

I'm self destructive but I can't change.

My human instinct, I can love unconditionally.
When Broken Is Easily Fixed, Silverstein

But Im still here
Sometimes i wonder
Why im still waiting
Sometimes im shaking
Thats how you make me.
Sometimes i question why im still here
Sometimes i think im going crazy
- Something, Escape The Fate.

Oh My their new album is AMAZING!
Although, I prefure Ronnie as the singer. But still, can't be helped.

Hmmmmm I need to do my coursework
A lovely speech for english
and i have no idea what to do.

I'm really messing up my life.